So here I am, scribbling once again on some random piece of paper. It's been a hell of a week, but not for any particular reason. Anyone who saw me this week would have thought nothing was out of the ordinary. The truth is, I barely made it. Its funny, you can never know how someone is reallt doing if they don't want you to. When you say to someone, "how are you", do you really want the truth? Or the expected "Oh, I'm fine."
Anyway, basically since Zoe left everything has just sucked, I mean plain old sucked. I will spare you the gory details. However it is a good sign that I am finally writing this all down. Last night was kind of a turning point. For whatever reason, and just for a moment, I felt so much better! The feeling went as quickly as it came, (today I am still struggling,) but I smiled for the first time in days. It was an incredable feeling. You can not fully appreciate the feeling of a simple smile until you have gone several days without it.
This week has felt as long as a year; let's see how next week goes. Sorry for taking so long to write again. Count the last two weeks as a step backward, and the last five minutes as a small step forward....
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